>The thing is, I would know that it was technically a lie. Even if I truly lost control due to untraining, that would still be a deliberate effort on my part, meaning I would have trouble justifying it, especially to people I care about.
If it makes it easier, it's a lie which would soon become true, such is the nature of what it is to untrain! You don't have to technically 'lie' as such, you can lead them to that conclusion without specifically saying it, at the same time I understand what you mean. I am not sure it is a very severe lie, if it is one.
>That would completely break me. I'm generally considered to be very mature and well-spoken, and I've had more than one friend or acquaintance comment on my eloquence and ability to defend my arguments. My entire reputation would, effectively speaking, be on the line. It makes me pretty mad that people treat others like they're immature just because they have a medical issue they can't control -- one that has no real impact on one's personality or mental state (at least not in that way).
I never felt the treatment was cruel or mean-spirited, more like simply treated as less mature because there's that subconscious association between incontinence and childishness I think. Especially since the treatment, at times condescension, comes from a place of care, not one of spite, I didn't mind too much.
>I'm a bit to the north of the US, but yeah, just diapers alone would easily get me $1200 or so in the hole, not to mention other supplies.
That is unbelievable! I'm in Australia and I would not be able, even if I tried, to spend that amount. Since $1200 is unaffordable, looks like you should consider cloth, or at least using cloth when you're at home.
>Exactly. I'm a pretty radical introvert by nature, so I'd likely be constantly jumping at my own shadow for the first little while, and trying not to involuntarily turn bright red whenever I fill my diaper. I love the sensation of wearing and using, but the social element would quite-possibly overwhelm that comfort and completely distort it for me.
I am highly introverted like you and rather self-conscious; although I was never diagnosed with anxiety as such, I think I fit the definition. However, I never found 24/7 to be much of an issue in terms of social wife after a little while; in fact, I felt liberated. I find it a bit hard to explain... I suppose it forces one to have a 'radical openness' that ends all sense of bashfulness, self-consciousness; and the fact those around me were all kind about it, if a bit infantilising, made it much easier.
>You probably have a better idea by now, but basically it's just the fact that I would go from a respected source of conversation and debate, to that dude who makes everything awkward because no one can make eye contact with him without trying to figure out whether or not he's had an accident.
If you really can't get over that, then untraining isn't for you, you just won't enjoy it. Are you sure you can't get over it? Honestly, incontinence isn't something to be ashamed of.
>You laugh, but I'm being serious. The feeling of wearing diapers is incredibly liberating, but the feeling of other people's pity is the biggest day-ruiner there is for me. I hate pity. I hate showing weakness.
That's completely fair, I understand where you come from. All I can offer is that 24/7 made me escape from that and did make me happier, but it is a rather unorthodox solution, and certainly I am sure each person would respond differently to the lifestyle changes untraining engenders. Being able to show weakness and reveal to others the most private thing about yourself is in some ways building up strength. At least for me. I laugh only because I do wonder whether you'd like other people talking about your diapers... nothing wrong with admitting you kind of want to be seen that way. That doesn't mean you necessarily have to pursue it, or that you should, but it's something I felt to some degree.
>I'm glad you're enjoying it; make sure to savour every second.
I still haven't tired of it! Even though it's become 'normal', I still feel happy that I can wear 24/7, so fortunate. It's so nice to wet/mess whenever, often unknowingly, as awkward as it sounds. I'm sure others won't understand, but it makes me happy...
>As for me, for now I'm content just wearing during nights and such; quarantine notwithstanding, I would normally occasionally wear during shopping trips, when I could get over myself for five seconds lol. It's fun, but eventually I'd like to decide once and for all whether or not I'll go any further. We'll see lol.
Yeah, I suppose what you can do is wear in public but not around those you know to have at least a small sense of what it's like. That won't be the 'full experience' but that's a taste of how it is to, for instance, wet/mess in public, use the bathrooms to change, etc. How did you feel when you were wearing on shopping trips?